Kicking myself in the ASS now!

I can't believe I did this. I put off running over and over again. Not today I'm tired. Not today it's raining. Not today I should take a rest day off (because of all the sports). Not today, not today, not today.

Well here we are now at the "real start" of training season for the Run for the Toad 25km Trail Race and take ONE GUESS WHO'S NOT READY!!??? Good lord . . . Why do I do this to myself?

I don't want to get hurt. I don't want to get a stupid injury because I didn't bother to run on a regular basis over the spring. So this is my tiny venting and then I'll let it go. There's nothing I can do about now.  I can only try my best and see what happens.

On a positive note, I have been walking almost twice a day for 6 months. At least I haven't been a couch potatoe. I figure the walking has to count for something. Lately though it has been very short walks.  :-(

My main concern right now is how long and how often to start back in. I ran once a week for 2 weeks - 5-6 km ish. Then this weekend I ran 6.5 kms Saturday and 5.5 kms Sunday. Felt good. Feet were a little sore - going to have to remember to roll them  . . .

My schedule tells me that starting next week I should run 24 km total for the week. Yikes! Uhmm . . . 12 kms last week + 10% rule =  13.2 kms this week. HAHAHAHA!

Guess I'll spend a little time revamping this schedule. And by a little, I mean half an hour tonight!  I think I might just revamp it to only go to 20 kms (not 22 kms as suggested) as my longest run in training and just wing the last 5 kms on race day. That way the lead up can be a little less all the way through.

I'll run tomorrow a.m. 3-4 kms and Friday a.m. same. Longish run sometime Sunday . . .  hoping for the best . . .  wish me luck . . . and call me Dumbass!

Wow

A month has gone by.

I knew it was bad. Sorry guys!

I've been doing quite a bit of personal reading, research and soul-searching. Not too much though . . . don't want to get too close to that!

I'm not really any closer to answering my problems but I am feeling a little more at peace. I don't know where I am headed but am confident in my ability to make choices and listen to my inner voice.

I also do not know where this blog is going. So it might end up to be a stream of random thoughts. It might change focus from post to post. But I will be posting.  :-)   and that makes me happy that I can confidently say that.

Have a wonderful day and watch out for the next post.

Toodles